You’re worth more than that. More than a replacement, the girl he goes to when he only wants a girlfriend. He may not see that, but someone else will. So set yourself free from him, because I promise you will eventually get what you deserve. You will find what you’re worth.
Shut up and stop trying to make me regret what I’m saying or make me feel bad.You might of cared or liked me or whatever, I can’t read your mind, but the point is you sure as hell didn’t show it and that’s the part that matters. All you had to do was call me at night and hangout with me a little but you …were too busy trying to act like you didn’t care, to show that you did. And I’m sick of waiting around for something that isn’t going to happen cause I’ve been back and forth with you long enough to know that it’s gonna be this way as long as I let it.
People think they know you. They think they know how you’re handling a situation. But the truth is, no one knows. No one knows what happens after you leave them, when you’re lying in bed or sitting over your breakfast alone and all you want to do is cry or scream. They don’t know what’s going on inside your head – the mind-numbing cocktail of anger and sadness and guilt. This isn’t their fault. They just don’t know. And so they pretend and they say you’re doing great when you’re really not. And this makes everyone feel better. Everybody but you.
Sorry doesn’t fix anything. Sorry doesn’t erase the nights I cried myself to sleep because I was alone. Sorry doesn’t take back the terrible feelings I had because the one person who I trusted to keep me safe and to not break my heart left. Sorry doesn’t negate the fact that you did this before and promised you would never do it again! Sorry is a worthless word that means absolutely nothing to me anymore. Much like promises, thanks to you.
Promise me. That’s all I want. Just promise that you’ll never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you’ll always remember me. Losing you was hard enough, but I don’t want to go on knowing I mean absolutely nothing to you.
I know exactly how you feel, but you deserve better. If he really cared about you more than her, he would’ve broken up with her. There are better guys out there who will put that real smile on your face, but first you have to let him go. I know it’s hard, I’m still trying, but you’ll never be about to move on until you do. Don’t waste another second on someone who doesn’t care enough to be with you. Especially when he knows how you feel.
I can’t help but think that somewhere inside of you, I’m there. Somewhere between liking me and loving me and everything in the middle, you got scared. The tingling and the butterflies terrified you. You didn’t know what could or couldn’t happen. Call me crazy, but I think I mean a lot more to you than meaningless kisses and empty feelings. I don’t think you can run away from this feeling forever. I think you are eventually just going to have to be okay with the fact that I make your stomach flip and your heart skip. Eventually, you’ll realize it’s the best feeling in the world. Hopefully it doesn’t take too long.
It hurts to love like this and it hurts to lose like this. It’s hell to feel the loss and to know that you’ll keep giving until you break, and even when you do break, you’d still give some more. Finally, the giving becomes a taking. Finally, the love becomes a nightmare and it rends the very fiber of your being. It hurts to end it, but it hurts too much to continue, an empty shell, a husk hollow from the pain. That is what you’ve become, but never would I go back and do anything differently.
I needed to know that I meant something, anything to you. But what I got was nothing, absolutely nothing. And it’s funny the things you realize when someone walks away. At first you feel as though it’s your fault. Feeling like nothing, so close to falling apart. and then, in time, you come to the realization that you did nothing wrong. That it’s his loss, that you are so much better without that one boy who didn’t ever care. You live and you learn, that’s how it is.
When you’re thinking about how much you miss me, and I’m completely fine. Remember how I felt, and remind yourself this is what you wanted. Because with every day coming and going, I’m learning how to be okay without you. And I can’t wait for the day when I get to look at you and feel absolutely nothing.
It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on. And when you want to move on, but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.
I only have two words for you: I’m done. After everything I’ve done for you, every chance that I gave you, and yet you still break my heart. But it’s over now. Finally, I’ve realized that I don’t deserve this and honestly, you don’t deserve me. Yeah, I still love you and I probably will for a long time, but I can’t stay here anymore. It hurts too much. I guess this is moving one.
You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you’re attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It’s never been about what you want; it’s always everyone’s needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you’re okay with that, because they’re in your life and that’s all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you’ll still be there for him. Because that’s you, that’s who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it’s so hard for you to let go.
And you taught me what this feels like. And then how it feels to lose it. And you showed me who I wanted. And then who I wasn’t. And you ticked every box. And then drew a line. And you weren’t mine to begin with. And then not to end with. And you looked like everything I wanted. And then became something I hated. And you get thought of every day. And then not in a good way. And you let me leave. And then wish I’d stayed. And you almost killed me. But I didn’t die.
I looked back on us today, and I honestly don’t know why I missed you, and why I wanted you back. Sure, at the beginning we were kids rushing into things we had no idea what about, but slowly, instead of trusting you more, I trusted you less, and the more I loved you, the less I loved myself. But now I’m free, and I’m not sorry. I had to get out. I knew it was over long before you said it. And I thought you broke my heart, but you merely made it stronger, made it resilient. Of course I’ll never forget you, but there’s no way I’m ever going back. So goodbye, my first love. Thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time.